perspective

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i was in a car accident several months ago. it was quite severe. it was the kind of accident you hear about on 6 o'clock the news. where both drivers are killed in a head on collision. only in my case both drivers weren't killed. we both walked away. from what i'd come to learn later the other driver was basically fine outside some scrapes and bruises. my injuries were also fairly minor in comparison to some. a shattered femur and a chewed up forehead. nothing to be taken lightly, sure, but i was able to be put back together and back up on my feet in a few months. i felt, and still feel, incredibly lucky.

to be honest it's a feeling of more than luck. it swells from inside of me. it starts, usually, with happiness. amazing joy at the fact that i am still alive. i'm able to walk and talk and have my life continue on in the way that i'm accustomed. i have some discomfort and i'm not as fast as i used to be, but my life has continued on without any major hiccups.

after the happiness fades, i feel sadness. i think of other people in my same situation. people who weren't able to walk away. accidents where people have lost limbs. who have lost the ability to think or speak. people who have lost loved ones. people who have had their lives completely turned inside out while having to learn how to speak again. or having to learn how to use a wheelchair. my sadness is rooted in guilt. i have feelings of guilt for surviving my accident unharmed when so many others have not been so lucky.

i never want to erase or forget the happiness, the sadness, or the feeling of unbelievable luck. i need to use these feelings to better myself and better the world.

the wiz.

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tonight we saw the new wizard of oz movie. i enjoyed the visuals, but it's clearly driven towards children. i think the roles were cast well and acted well, i just think the script was written to appeal to families.

the climax, and many other scenes, was fairly uneventful and i think they played too much to the 'believe in yourself' message.

stupid disney.

later that night: more zombie moves.

Transient

i have a tremendous collection of action figures

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Transient

most folks who know me know that about me. i'm fulfilling a little boys dream.

my dream. from childhood. i told everyone, who would listen, that when i was old enough to have a job and have my own money that i would buy all the toys i wanted.

i'm proud to say that i have a very large and bold 'check' next to that on my list of 'to-dos.' i like toys and i have no reason to believe that they don't feel the same about me.

day 2.

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i had some coloring issues that were only noticeable on my earlier shots, solely on mobile devices. on a personal computer in a regular web browser there was no issue. color space and the web are not always bffs.

i think i fixed that issue, but i'm waiting on new ones to pop up so i can hop on those as well. huzzah!

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welcome to my old new site.

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warm kitty.

i'm still updating albums and feeling it out. so, it maybe be slightly different each time you come back. however, that's pretty dang exciting if you ask me. especially in this world of electronic guitars and motor cars.

poke around. it's got the blog, obviously. it has my photography portfolio. and i'm hoping to add videos and some other things as well. ever growing.

i've also got my instagram connected up, via the magic of the tubes.

anyhow, here's a picture of my cat to welcome you to my new site. since, you know, it's the internet and all.